Post op pain, getting married soon and fed up

it's 1am, I can't sleep, I'm 4 days post op and I feel tonight it's just all hit me Maybe I need a good cry! 

I'm 32, 3 children and getting married in 6 months!! Haven't even sent invites yet because I'm so behind because of this *** cancer ‍♀️ I've been with my partner for 13 years, he proposed a few years ago but we had children, life got in the way so last year we decided to get married, I was so excited and then bam in January 2023 what happens... I get breast cancer! Why now?! Why me?! I want to scream "this is unfair" but what good will that do? 

Feel like I'm just posting this for a rant sorry but anyone else get to that moment after being strong, carrying on as normal with cancer then you just feel you want to cry and scream at the world? Xx

 

  • Hi Sparkle

    I've been there, sleepless nights, walking as soon as it got light so I could just breathe. 

    Breast cancer is crap, the treatment takes a lot out of you: physically, mentally and emotionally so it's perfectly normal to rage, scream and cry at the injustice of it all.

    I have to say I admire you, I don't know how I would have coped at your age, you must be a very strong woman. That strength will get you through anything, so once you've recovered, grab that lovely family of yours and throw yourself into life. That sparkle will come back - as you won't let cancer win. x

     

  • Sparkle 

    I had bC last July , I was the same at that time I finished treatment in nov it's feb now and I feel back to myself it took a while but I'm a fizzy bottle of pop now don't let it get you down Lippy on get down that isle and am like you are a strong beautiful woman we all have days 

    Good luck for your wedding 

    love Lara ️

  • Thank you for your amazing reply your last paragraph made me cry and gave me the boost I needed. Thank you again for your kind words <3 How are you now too? X

  • Thank you also for your lovely reply Lara, you're right, we all have those days and that's exactly what I need to do, put that lippy on and get down that isle! :) Feel more positive and in less pain today, hope you are ok too x

  • Sparkle 

    you got this the worst part is done it's gone now it's easy to get stuck as appointment's ect I was exactly the same but quite quickly the appointments get less the thinking gets less and before you nonit you are like Heyy this is over now I can move on 

    I don't no if it's a coping way for me but I have deleted that part of my life now I feel like it's the past it's not welcome in my future .

    you will be beautiful walking down that isle my lovely ️