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Living on borrowed time.

Ellieanne
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Hi everyone, I haven't posted for a long time mainly because since my last post my cancer keeps coming back. Breast cancer in 2000. Endometrial cancer in 2020. It then progressed to vaginal cancer just by my wee pipe. In 2021. Then it came back in 2022 right at the top of the vagina and they also found a legion on my bowel. All were successfully treated. As from 2023 so far an enlarged lymph gland has been found and then this morning I have started bleeding again from the place where my tumour was near my wee pipe. During this time in September 2022 my beloved husband passed away suddenly from a massive stroke. This was 4 weeks before my laparoscopy. I have been told A week ago they are still going to treat me and awaiting a pet scan to decide what treatment they will give me and to see if it has spread. Now I have started bleeding again I will have to phone on Monday to speak to my ontology nurse and find out what is now going to hapoen. I just feel what have I done to deserve all this. My heart is complete broken and I am finding life completely unbearable. My children and family have been wonderful but they have their own lives. All I want is to be with my husband and not having him around is so very painful.

sorry for going on. Hope all cancer sufferers and their families find peace of mind and hope. Take care.xx

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    Please stay strong , i know it is awful as i had a  brain tumour , lost my dad 7 months later i lost my mum , a year later my best friend then 3 years later my dear sister in law ,she had breast cancer and fought it for over 10 years! 

    Ive been left with all sorts of stuff from my after effects and now waiting results of a vulval biopsy from 2 weeks ago and had appointment booked for 9th Feb but recieved a letter Today to say it has been cancelled due to staff shortages!!

    I just want to know if i have another battle to face or not! Lol

    Just keep your chin up my love , yes, it does get lonely im ( 65 ) i lived on my on now for 20 years except when my son comes and goes but i keep my chin up by thinking there is always someone worse off then me!! 

    Hope you have the strength to carry on your fight ! 

    Im here for a chat dawn 

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    Hi Dawn, thank you for your post. II am so sorry to hear you are waiting for results. This is always the worse bit isn't it . Once you know you can get into a mind set and go forward. I hope your results are good. I am 67 and my husband was 78. We were together 49/50 years and married 48 years. I know in many ways I am lucky to have my family but I do feel so guilty for having to keep saying the cancer has come back. I am just so tired of being pulled about but will keep on fighting for my family. If I didn't have them I do not think I would have the strength to carry on. My son gets married in May and I have to be there for him, my daughter and family and also for my husband.  I hope the hospital get in touch very soon. Take care for now and thank you again for your post.

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    Hi Ellieanne. Just read your post i really feel for you. It is so hard to deal with a diagnosis like cancer and not have your husband with you. I know exactly how you feel x I am new to this cancer journey having tests at the moment PET scan is the next one. Sadly my partner passed away suddenly in his sleep beginning of January I found him. He looked very peaceful just asleep. Post mortem revealed heart disease so shocked thought such a fit man   So now I must go on this journey without him. How will we both do that. Hopefully we get strength from somewhere. Take care x

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