Hey, That feeling is the worst, I think being scared beforehand is one thing but when they actually find something that just floors you completely. When they said they found a polyp and couldn't tell if it was cancer or not I felt a out of body experience. The whole thing felt surreal like is this actually happening? Is this for real? Just felt like they made a mistake. Terrifying to say the least. I am glad you got the op done! Better safe then sorry! Atleast this way you know you have everything possible and you're not always on the edge of your seat when your not feeling good and think it's the cancer. 6cm in that is low my one was 12cm in and stil considered low. The consultants could not tell me where my bleeding was coming from, they weren't even sure if the polyp was causing it or if my hemorrhoids were causing it. Even though the pit pattern on my polyp looked dangerous it wasn't ulcerated. I researched all the medical jargon on my report and realised my pit pattern wasn't good it was a pit pattern VI pseudo depressed type, basically the worst of them all. So can not thank God enough for these histology results. 
Hoping you get the best results from your histology I do feel like there was no lymph node involvement, due all the scans and what they said, but it's good to be precautious and glad you chose the best option. Xxx

Hi Betty

Just catching up on your update.  I'm so pleased you were able to get the rationale behind the (changed) decision and able to make an informed decision.  If they had given you this information at the initial appointment it would have saved you a lot of worry and anxiety!  

Good to hear you are recovering well.  Let's hope that continues.  Best of Luck

Claire xXx

Hi Claire

Thank you so much for your reply! I completely agree, I wish they gave me this updated information when I first went in as it would have saved me so much angst! In hindsight I really didn't get on well with the first consultant - he didn't really take his time to explain much to me but the second consultant I saw, drew diagrams and explained everything in an intelligent but sympathetic way - I really appreciated his effort in explaining everything to me from start to finish in an informed way, unlike the glossing over I'd experienced previously! Thank you for all your good wishes. I'm in that nightmare place of awaiting more test results now (my post operative histology) and I'm having to stop myself going down the Google rabbit hole. I am dreading hearing that it's spread to the lymph nodes (apparently I am at a higher risk due to depth of invasion despite having no lymphovascular invasion and low grade tumour) so lots of nerves all round.
[@Sabr]‍ I totally get the out of body experience you're referring to! Horrible isn't it - I'll never forget the shock. When is your next appointment? 
All my love

Betty

xXx

[@bettyb1987]‍ hi love! I will never forget the feeling when they first found something, just feels like it's not you they're talking about, they must be talking about someone else. I had my 6 month check up on May and now I have my next one year check up next May, I am absolutely terrified for that. How are you ? What did they say ? Sending hugs xxx