Hello lovely ladies (and men)
I'm 46 and am waiting results!!
I've spent weeks reading all the posts in this forum to try and find some reassurance but I'm struggling and today I'm in major panic mode!!
A couple of months ago I went to the doctor as I could feel a lump and a very lumpy area, the doctor agreed and referred me on an urgent referral ( I've already had two lumps out although benign but one 20 odd years ago i recall them saying it needed to be taken out cause it may change?! So I went under General Anaesthetic and had it removed, I remember signing a consent form back then incase they had to remove the breast! I had no follow up after.
Anyway 20 odd years later I went for a mammogram and the Radioligist said all clear and was told nothing to worry about. A week later I had a call to say they wanted me back as on second glance they could see an area that needed a closer look. It was a cluster of Calcifications (not fibrous as they had hoped for) so I had another ultra sound and they said I would need a stereotatic biopsy. I had this done last week and they sent me an appointment in the post for the follow up even before the biopsy was done which makes me think that they think it's not good news?!
Anyway I asked a few questions during the biopsy which I must say was horrendous as the anaesthetic didn't work at all. They didn't leave a marker which I thought they may if they think it's benign. The radiographer said when looking at people's clusters/Calcifications there's some they can see straight away that are fine, some they know are not but mine they are unsure of but felt she was just saying that to not overly worry me until my review which is In 3 days time on Thursday.
I've been quite strong until today, I'm in a mess, thinking of the worse, worrying about what may happen right in Christmas. I have an 11 year old and two children who are now 24 and 21 and I'm a singke Mum although I do have a very supportive boyfriend but lives quite far from me.
I'm trying to portray I am strong and all will be ok but my gut and instinct is saying I'm not.
My mum had lymphoma cancer and died of dementia very young.
I have found reading this forum very helpful but I am now googling which I know I shouldn't do but I can't help it. I can't concentrate on work and can't motivate myself to do anything.
Roll on Thursday so I can be out if this Limbo land.