2015 I was diagnosed with invasive breast cancer had a double Mastectomy 

had many reconstruction since then  now have a decent pair of bloobs with cleavage. In September 21  went  for last check ready to be discharged from hospital did have a lump that I thought was the same as I was always under the impression having a mastectomy  all the breast tissue taken out  so  the cancer was not coming back again in the breast  as this wouldn't happen . It might return elsewhere but not in the breast however was I wrong.

It's back however it hasn't spread which is positive but I do have to have mastectomy without reconstruction so no implants 

my first thought was too have double mastectomy which my surgeon agreed ( I am so Lucky have the same surgeon for 6 years ) 

my reason were obviously in case it comes back in the other breast and hides behind the implant I may not be so lucky.

my second reason was to be symmetrical because I snuggle with un -  symmetrical objects 

I also get pain in other side .

didn't want any more surgery 

good reasons I felt hospital made me speak to a counsellor who agreed  I'm sound body and mind am I able to make my own decisions now I'm doubting myself I don't know what to do operation is booked for Monday and I just want to walk away avoidance I know .

family and friends support my decision however I am so confused and wondered if anyone else had been in my dilemma and had any suggestions or strategies that helped  make a decision

whatever I choose I will have to live with the decision .

I have been offered tummy tuck if I choose one if double will be flat .

not sure if I have to have chemo again radio is defo no no as had my Quoter previously 

thanks in advance