I was diagnosed with breast cancer after finding a ‘bouncy ball’ in my right breast. Mammograms and biopsy done and in January this year a diagnosis of invasive breast cancer - consultant said this was normal for people finding a lump themselves. Diagnosed as stage 2 with lymph node involvement. 

I had 6 rounds of chemo - all my hair fell out this made me upset as I had long hair, no eyebrows or eyelashes and looked like a baby alien. Side effects were not too bad apart from being tired all the time, sore bones after the injection the following day and a yucky taste in my mouth. I was so happy to finish this.

Then onto a mastectomy with deep flap reconstruction in July this year. They had spoken about Alumpectomy but then said it had to be a mastectomy. Pathology report said they took 29 lymph nodes only 2 with evidence of cancer. They got clear margins. Recovered reasonably well can just about get my arm above my head!

then chucked on tamoxifen for the next 10 years.

Also scheduled for a week of radiotherapy at the start of October.

Now I know that I have put up with and got through the chemo, I was terrified of the long operation, they seemed relatively happy with the pathology results.....but right now I just feel quite down. I cannot be bothered doing anything. Just sit and watch crap on tv and feel scared about what could happen in the future and about leaving my partner and 2 children. I just feel in a bit of a dip. Anyone got any advice, suggestions about how I can get out of this? I do not want any more pills!