Scared

I went to Drs yesterday for an internal exam following me experiencing frequent urination and  the increasing times I wet myself lately. After the exam the Dr said that unrelated to the matter I went about she had seen a dark area at the neck of my cervix and has referred me to my local hospital and said I should hear within 2 weeks. I asked if it was cancer like expecting her to reject the idea as I had had a clear smear result in 2019, instead she said she couldn't say one way or the other and that she was sorry and would deal with the other matter I went for as a separate issue. I came home she'll shocked and have googled much I don't know what to think. I assume there is a chance its cancer but i feel so well and have had no symptoms. I am so scared but have only told my husband as it may be nothing. Does anyone have a similar experience when the doctor could see with the naked eye a suspicious area on the neck of the cervix? What tests should I now expect? Thank you 

 

  • Hi Jomal.

    I can definitely concur that the waiting is the worst part. In my experience with the gp, my "you should have a scan within the next 2 weeks" and "you're on a 2wk urgent cancer pathway" were very different.

    The GP can't rule anything out but that also doesn't mean the y are diagnosing something, there's a lovely big void in the mirror of uncertainty that our brains make us feel like we should fill.

    I spent far too much time with Dr Google l. It made me feel "in control" as if I was choosing to "research", but in hindsight in made my worrying far worse and have since done my best to stay primarily on this website or butterfly (which is specific to my journey of thyroid diagnostics". 

    Try to find 10mins of something else to think about it that requires your focus, I found this piece of advice very helpful. 

    E. 

     

  • Yes you are so right. At the moment it could be nothing or it could be the worst thing but I must stop double guessing and try and appreciate this time. I have no symptoms and I feel well and I will embrace that for now. Thank you for you reply.