Hi Alan

I'm new too...

Just wanted to say hope your doing ok...

Best wishes 

Hello 

l am doing okay thanks 

just a little bit anxious about chemotherapy 

how are you doing ? 
it's nice to have someone to chat with 

Alan

That's good to hear.. I can only imagine how anxious you are Alan.. All this is so scarey isn't it..

I'm not sure you'd want to hear about me... I'm very down and extremely anxious

Kerry 

And yes it's so nice to be able to talk with someone who is going through something similar

Kerry 

Kerry.

it is scary .

it was lovely for you to hear about me . 
so I would like to hear about you too .

please don't be down it's good to talk about our situations and it's also the unknown. 

Ok Alan here goes.... Hope your comfy.

I'll be back 

:happy:
just want to send a big hug to you 

About 4 weeks ago I went for a routine thyroid blood test.

A couple of days later the gp rang and said the liver enzymes were a bit high. So you need a ultrasound scan. I has that and the next day another gp rang said in a quiet voice that my pancreatic duct was dilated. So I need you to have another blood test (amylase) the next evening he text and actually said "the result was normal which is reassuring?!?!" what does that mean I thought.

Had to have a ct scan this morning

I think it's pancreatic cancer

I cry all the time

I've wrote letters

Sorry Alan I did warn you

Kerry 

Kerry please don't be sorry.

have you had any results back yet ?

it's normal to cry it's better to cry than store it all up inside you.

I cried today because i thought I wasn't having chemotherapy then all of a sudden I received the call today Saturday of all days  so it's normal for us all to cry  

No I haven't yet but I'm so scared Alan.

What will I do if they can't help me..

I don't want to answer the phone if it rings..

I can't concentrate on anything apart from the thought I'm going to die 

Was you diagnosed with cancer?

Sorry Alan..

Normally I'm such a happy lady 

Kerry .

unfortunately I was diagnosed with bowel cancer this was while I am waiting for a hip replacement and I also need a knee replacement after my hip but all this has been cancelled for the time being, so for the last 18 months I have been on crutches.

You have to be strong Kerry you can still be a happy Lady . 

Alan x

Kerry .

unfortunately I was diagnosed with bowel cancer this was while I am waiting for a hip replacement and I also need a knee replacement after my hip but all this has been cancelled for the time being, so for the last 18 months I have been on crutches.

You have to be strong Kerry you can still be a happy Lady . 

Alan x

Bless you Alan

I will keep in touch. 

Everything good is being sent your way x

I just can't cope with being called in x

Hello Kerry.

How are you Today ?

it was lovely to chat with you Yesterday.

Alan 

Hello Alan

I only got out of bed an hour ago as I had huge nervous stomach again.

Just waiting for the call.

I've also been speaking to some people on here who have been lovely to me.

I feel awful as constantly seem to be woe is me.

You too Alan what a nice guy you are..

How are you doing today? X

Kerry 

you only get out of bed when your ready to get up.

try to relax and just think they will call if they need to treat me ...

kerry you too are so nice.

Your thinking like that because you don't know any results yet and your anxiety levels are high.

I am okay thanks I have been for a walk by the beach early this morning as I don't sleep much any night due to pain.

Alan x 

Thanks as I said I'm usually a bubbly and happy little human but not these days.... My anxiety is through the roof... I'm sure you completely understand where I am coming from.

That sounds lovely to be able to walk along the beach.. Have you got a dog? 

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I certainly do understand where your coming from.

Not anymore I try to walk on a daily basis.

kerry you can still bubbly and happy it's good to talk to others as well. 
sending you a Happy Hug 

Alan x

Hey alan

I felt that happy hug

Thankyou for being a good friend

I'm here for you too

I sent a friend request not sure if I'd already done it

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