That's not good. Sending you a hug xx I was diagnosed on 5th May. I'm due a lumpectomy this coming Tuesday. Large lump though! So if they don't get the margins then I'm looking at a masectomy. I seem to have become very familiar with cancer terminology very quickly I think I was living in a total bubble before - I never thought this would be me. It's hideous isn't it?
When is your next surgery? Did you have a double masectomy? And what a pain that you have an infection - that's the last thing you need. Plus it will make you feel poorly and run down too.
I have no idea what to expect really once treatment begins on Tuesday (I'm 48). So far, apart from knowing I have cancer in my boob, I've felt no different prior to knowing! It's all very strange. I'm sure once I have a big chunk of my boob taken away on Tuesday though reality will absolutely kick in :(
I have found this forum amazing. So many lovely people offering great advice and endless support. It's a lonely feeling at times. Sometimes the only people that can make you feel less adrift are people going through what you are. It's really helped me.
Sending my love, a massive hug and here if you want to chat, rant, laugh or cry xxx
Thank you for your message it has helped. I have had a single mastectomy with a diep . They attempted to save my nipple but it died . This is where my infection is , also have an infection where my belly button was moved so feeL awful . On my second lot of antibiotics. Surgery has been rebooked for the 15 th . Meeting with my oncology surgeon on Tuesday ( same day as your op ) to see if she will clear me . Once that is healed hopefully I can begin on phase 2. My fake boob is a lot smaller than my natural 36 g .
I really hope your lumpectomy is a success and a mastectomy is not needed. Sending you bundles of positive vibes .
I haven't come to terms with this at all . Initially I just wanted the cancer out but now attempting to come to terms with my body . I still can't look at my reconstructed breast. I even cover the bathroom mirrors up . But am looking at some therapy . You are so right it really makes a difference to speak to other people going through a cancer journey , it really sucks .
No problem at all. Feel free to add me as a friend. Then we can private message each other too if you want to.
I am dreading what my new body is going to look like. I can absolutely comprehend what you must be going through now honey. I feel the same as you - I will do whatever it takes to get rid of the cancer. However, that does not mean we won't feel the emotional trauma that can be brought about by a very dreastuc change in body shape. My boobs are part of my femininity, I love my boobs! I'm really upset to be having to go through this :((
I'm single too. I went through a really horrid divorce and one fear I have is that the surgery will make me less attractive and I won't be able to meet anyone new. Some may say that's a ridiculous thought train to embark on. I don't dwell on it for sure. But it definitely crosses my mind. Along with all the other anxieties I never thought I'd have to process.
I'm generally a very positive person but this situation is testing me for sure. I have two teenage sons who are amazing. I'm nothing but positive in front of them. Appearing to take it all in my stride etc. In fact I'm doing ok. I've not had the surgery yet though. I wish it wasn't such a big area that has to come out. But cancer gives you no choices it seems eh! It's *** there is no doubt about it.
Your journey sounds really bumpy so far. Do you have lots of support around you? I know it's hard but I'm just treating this as a blip that I will overcome. We will come out the other side of this my lovely. We will be different people but it will definitely make us stronger in so many ways. I think therapy is a great idea. I can imagine that I will probably opt for some too. A friend who was diagnosed in Nov 19 and is now cancer free, has just completed some therapy and she said it was hugely benificial for her. I think if you're struggling try whatever options you have. You can always change your mind if you don't think it's helping etc.
Sending my love, lots of it. Always here. Sarah xxx
