So went for the cystoscopy today and the Consultant showed me a picture of my bladder. It was a circle and it was all red. He mentioned some possible bladder disease as what felt like a hopeful side note but mentioned it might be cancer and said he was sending it to be tested to see if it is benign or malignant. I'm presuming he took a biopsy, I was a little taken aback since I have a history of kidney stones and he was actually going in to see if one was stuck so when he showed me the picture I only glanced at it briefly. Boy am I wishing I had that kidney stone stuck in there somewhere right now.

My fiancé had her mother's fifth anniversary too at the weekend who had recovered from breast cancer only to get it back 8 years later. I hate to think of the worry and anxiety my fiancé would have to go through so I won't tell her till I know what's happening. But I had to tell someone, Cheers.