Hi All,

My husband was diagnosed with terminal cancer just this week and I am struggling to cope with the thought of a future without him. It feels like this cancer has gone through him like a freight train in only a couple of months and he's struggling with the symptoms more and more. He is an inpatient at the moment and has been there for 3 weeks due to emergency chemo and brain surgery needed - hoping he can come home this week. He is only 38, fit and healthy and we have a 5yr old daughter who is obsessed with him. He is literally our world. As well as my own grief, I'm heartbroken thinking about what's going through his head about the things he's going to miss, all the plans we had for the future as a family are gone.

I'm trying to hold it together for both of them but all I really want to do is stay in bed and cry, I feel guilty at the moment because I am literally waiting for 7pm so I can put our daughter to bed and sob - I'm so exhausted from waking up feeling sad and that feeling never goes away. Knowing that our life together as a family will never be carefree again makes me feel physically sick

I was hoping to hear from someone in a similar situation or has been through this grief at such a young age with children. I have no idea how I am going to talk to our daughter about it or how she will even comprehend a life without him but plan to speak to the lovely ladies at Maggies for some advice and support.