My first time posting. I joined the club no one wants to be a part of. My mum was diagnosed with grade 4 lung cancer 4 weeks ago. She's 63. She looks fit and well but I know that will change soon.

I don't feel I can cope with the situation. My whole life seems complete hysteria. I have a good husband and two kids, good friends and a close family but I feel so alone. I've gone into my shell as it's the only way I know how to survive at the moment.

I'm petrified of seeing mum deteriorate. My dad is lost and in shock. I'm trying to stay strong for them both but I just feel completely empty.  I feel like the mountain I have to climb to get to grips with this all is impossible.

Xx