Hi 

41 years old male have had piles for 10 years with random bouts of bleeding managed with otc creams until december 1st last year.

Started with wht is best described as a nappy rash between the bum cheeks. Severe pain inside anus on defacation random bleeds a yellow discharged after a bm that burns like acid. Completed a fit test and it came back normal as i didnt bleed on the two days the samples were done (oh the irony). Had 3 pr exams 1 said piles 2 said anal fissue 3 said suspected anal fissure as unable to complete pr exam due to pain swelling and heat in the area.Pescribed otc pile cream which made the burning worse then schereproct cream made the problem worse extreme burning all the time then pescribed gtn ointment and could not tolerate due to blood pressure changes. The pescribed ditlazam cream which stops some of the cramping for 1 hour the the burning returns. I can best describe the pain as a holly leaf stuck inside that is on fire when i use the toilet then 8 hours of agony EVERY time i have had a bm for the past 3 months to the point i scream sweat and then wriggle on the bed in pain until the co codamol and naprxen kick in which give a temp relief. I saw a private consultant who wouldnt do a proctoscope due to my body mass index being too high i then had a refferal to the nhs who cancelled my appointment and rearranged for the 30th of march which is next week and then its only a telephone appointment. Four weeks ago rang 111 and they arranged a ambulance to come and i was too scared of catching covid to even go to the hospital. It has now come to the point i am petrified its cancer as nothing is helping me the time that has past and the random bleeding + pain that i have never experienced before in my life and i have been on fire due to a petrol burn so i know what pain is 2 degree burns on my head arm and face.This pain is as bad as that and i am now unable to walk without getting severe pain deep inside my anus. I have a fear of hospitals i love my children so much they are autistic and i cry for them if it turns out to be the bad word cancer. I dont even have the nerve to let the doctor do a camera due to the pain i am suffering with as the sizre of the camera seems so big. I have also had a change in bm movements sometimes flat sometimes blood streaked sometimes no blood sometimes hard sometimes diaoreha i can not eat anything but bland ffods and i love spicey food which i can not touch for obvious reasons. Im pleading with anybody does this sound like bc to you.IM SO SO SCARED fed up of not knowing and the doctors just guessing which could be costing vital time nhs have their hands full and i feel let down with them cancelling on me and having to suffer like this but this pain is so severe i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy