I just need to talk and I don't have anyone.  Long story short, but this has all happened in 6 weeks.

Irregular result of bowel screen.  Colonoscopy removed polyp.  Polyp tests showed that there were cancerous cells near the end.  CT scan to see if there was anything else obvious.  There wasn't bowel wise, consultant recommends bowel resection to make sure.  MRI scan revealed 17cm ovarian cyst but cancer blood test thing came back normal.  Spoke to gynaecologist yesterday who asked if I wanted a hysterectomy.  I said no, unless it all looks bad when I'm opened up.  The cyst has to be removed so the bowel can be accessed.  So now, within a couple of weeks, I face complex major surgery and there's only a 15-25% chance that I have any sort of cancer anyway.  I'm absolutely scared to death.  I will need 3 months to recover and there may not even be anything wrong.  My husband is a terrible worrier.  I need someone to pat me on the head and tell me everything will be ok, but it's me having to do the same to him.  My mum died 3 months ago, and I miss having her to talk to.

Sorry, I know there must be people in a far worse position than me, but I just wanted to vent