Hi Kateymatey and welcome to the Cancer Chat community.

You really don't need to apologise for 'waffling on'. The forum is a safe place for members to talk about their thoughts and feelings, and how you're feeling at the moment is completely understandable given what's happened before.

Many of our members have had to contend with similar thoughts whilst waiting for their follow-up tests and results so will understand what you're going through and will hopefully pop by soon to offer their support and advice.

In the meantime, I just want to wish you all the best with your scan in May. I know it's a little bit way off still but fingers crossed the results will continue the good news you've received so far.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Char Moderator

Hello Katetmatey,

                               Asides from the major issue of cancer sufferers awaiting delayed treatments due to covid,it also can throw up issues with those having had successful treatment unable to "crack on with life" due to lockdown issues,and having too much time to indulge in navel gazing and "what if?" scenarios.Normally you can get drawn away from having too much reflection time, but currently this will not be possible for a great many people. Its hard enough getting through cancer without finding yourself unable to let it go where it belongs,in your past. l count myself fortunate in that l have a croft with livestock that runs down to the atlantic,and have a full self contained life that covid has not really touched,so l really feel for those currently trapped in a tight unremitting void.

                                                                                                                      Not knowing your personal circumstances it is difficult to offer any practical advice and your post makes it clear you are well aware of your own issues,so all l can do is to wish that these feelings will pass quickly and become replaced by far happier ones

                    Remember when you have climbed your mountain of treatment,the way back down is easier and much more pleasurable and is a journey to be savoured,

                                                                                                    Take care from a 7 yr bowel and liver cancer survivor that relishes only looking forward, and views are great from here,

                                                                                                                       David