Hi Spongebob,

I can understand your disappointment. At least Monday isn't too far away. It must be very difficult to cope with this on your own. Is this because you haven't shared this news with family or friends or because you don't have anyone to share with? You will find that it is often helpful to have at least one person who you can confide in and who can support you if need be.

I agree that this is not a conversation that any of us want to have with our daughters and I sincerely hope that you don't have to. What ages are they? Most people avoid saying anything until they get a positive diagnosis. I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer in the past 11 years and had to break the news to my two children when they were in their teens. They have both been a tower of strength to me ever since.

A positive outlook is very helpful in a situation like this, although I know that it's not always easy to muster this up. Keeping yourself busy will help the time to pass.

Please let us know how you fare on Monday. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you. Don't forget that we are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hi Jolamine.

Thank you. Xx

How are you know? That must of been a very difficult conversation for you to have with your children.

My girls are 22 and 10. They are my world and I am hoping come Monday the conversation which I keep playing out in my head I won't have to share with them.

I have told my friend and they have been really supportive. I think everyone has gone through so much this last year and I know alot of my family have struggled, just like alot of others have.

I know its probably silly to say but I keep thinking this isn't happening to me. 

I am looking at staying positive and keeping it together over the weekend.

Thank you so much for sharing your story . 

I will keep you posted an let you know my results.

Sending love. Xx

Hi Spongebob,

I am glad to hear that you have told your friend. Having one person who you can confide in makes all the difference, as we all need support at this stage. It is not at all unusual to find ourselves in denial, full of resentment and anger at present. Our emotions can be all over the place and many of us find that we cry copiously, can't sleep, eat or function properly. Regardless of the outcome, you will feel better once you know your results. If they're what you want, you will feel a tremendous relief. If not, you will get on with fighting it.

The conversation I had with my children was not nearly as bad as I imagined it to be annd both very and have been really supportive from the outset. I am sure that both of yours will be too, if it comes to this. At this stage there are so many unknowns and, that is what is so scary. As we start to clarify these, if need be, we just pop on those pink boxing gloves, get in the ring and start fighting. All of us here will stand in your corner willing you on. 

Our cancer journeys are like a rollercoaster - up one minute and down the next, often with a few bumps along the way. I am currently having investigation for a third bout. I have been having various investigations since October and still have a few more to have. Fortunately, most of my results to date are all clear, so I'm just hoping that this continues to be the case. On the whole, I am fortunate that I still live a busy and fulfilling life.

This has been a surreal year. With so many tragedies, it almost makes cancer look insignificant. Everyone is struggling with the latest lock down and, I sincerely hope and pray that you don't have to contend with cancer on top of it.

I shall be thinking of you on Monday and hoping for the best possible outcome.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx