Hi Jolamine,

My ultrasound is on 5th March. Feeling very scared so my GP has put me on antidepressants to try and cope. 
 

xx

Hey, 

I've just been going through some forums trying to find something similar to myself I guess to make my self feel better or make sense of what I'm feeling. Google isn't always the best place ayy! 
 

anyway I've come across your post, and I feel like I could of wrote this myself. I completely understand how your feeling.

ive struggled with underarm pain and lumpness for about 4 years. The first time I get referred and everything was fine it was such a relief and weirdly I had no pain for 3 years maybe the odd week or couple of days around periods. Then October last year I went through quite a stressful time and I noticed a lump under my arm to the side of my boob. I went to my gp got a referral and was told it was hormonal still. Again I stopped worrying untill I found the lump a lot more prominent about 7 weeks ago. So again I've gone to my gp and they have sent me back so waiting for my appointment and hopefully a scan at the end of March. 

iam so scared to that they have missed something as I didn't have a scan, now I'm thinking it's going to be double the size.

My gp thinks it's the tail end of my breast tissue flarring up. 
I'm just unsure on this I think I would feel better if it was lymph node going up and down. 
 

I to have servere health anxiety it's consuming my day to day life and my sleep. I just want to get it checked and find out what it is. 
 

I hope you are keeping okay, and have had your scans 

just know I feel exactly the same anxiety is the worse.

Sending lots of love 

meg x

Hi Cf5,

I hope that the antidepressants helped. How did you ultrasound go?

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hi Meg & Jolamine,

So sorry for the delay - I've just been staying off the internet to process everything.

Thankfully the ultrasound went okay. They didn't find anything sinister in my boob and in my underarm, they found a few reactive nodes but no one is worried about anything. It's such a relief.

I just really struggle with my breasts and the surrounding tissue. They both feel so different from each other but perhaps I've been digging in too hard as well. I just have a lot of anxiety around missing possible changes in my breasts, so I worry I'm not checking thoroughly enough or deeply enough. 

The antidepressants are starting to help and I'm going to be starting some therapy sessions as well. Still feeling very anxious about my body but I hope I'll feel better again in time. Thank you so much for being there. 
 

xx

Hi Cf5,

This is fantastic news. I'm so glad for you. You will gradually get to know what feels normal for you. Sometimes, digging in too hard can make your breasts feel sore, even if they weren't before. I find that the easiest way to check is in the shower. If I soap myself well and then run my hands over my breasts with my arms in the different positions, it is much easier to feel anything untoward. Also, it doesn't leave my breast feeling painful, as my hands glide over my breast with the soap, instead of digging in on dry skin.

I am delighted to hear that the antidepressants are helping and, that you will soon be starting some therapy sessions too. I sincerely hope that these make a big difference for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thanks for everything Jolamine, and I really appreciate the advice in regards to checking myself. All the best xx

Hi,

No problem at all. Take care of yourself and don't forget to check routinely.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx