hi not sure if i am posting in the correct place but here goes...

im a 38 year old man father to 2 young children who love and rely on me dearly i have been a moderate smoker for 20 years not a heavy drinker i live alone and have no support at all with any adult human and now feel as though i am being pushed away and left on a total whim

started getting really strange abdominal pains totally out of the orinary around beggining on novemeber 2020 originally started as sort of like stabbing pains around the belly button region up to my right rib area the pain sort of seemed to be totally apparent as to what i was eating and how strong the pain became i went into AandE quite a few times between nov -dec as the pain was getting worse and doubling me up on the floor it was hurrendous and trying to look after my kids was becoming impossible but they kept basing my full diagnosis on the fact my bloods were fine and i had no temperature so kept saying i was having IbS which i know for a fact i am not having (i have friends with ibs who dont experince anything like this) i have had quite a few blood test which have all come back as fine all things were poinitng towards my gall bladder i kept pushing for more re assurance and managed to get an ultrasound shortly before xmas the scan apparentley was fine also so sent me home with pain killers i am apparently on an emergency waiting list for an endoscopy but still have not heard a peep about this from the hospital now since xmas this pain has got so severe some days i can barely walk i cant concentrate it has pretty much put an end to my once normal life the pain is up my right side front and back mainly some days it feels like i have no insides it feels hollow or like there is something inside me creating pressure on my organs i wake up every morning in serious lower back pain blood in stool not a lot but still signs of bleeding

i have explained this and how i feel to a lot of doctors now and it feels like nobody is taking me seriously at all i am getting sent home in hurrendous pain which is impossible to deal with nothing seems to be progressing on there side but the pain is getting worse daily

really dont know where to turn to now im so worried i often go upstairs and just break down away from my kids i have no lines of support i am fully cut off from the world now and none of my friends call me ever the doctors or hospital dont take me serious and i fear this is all just time and my life being wasted

any advice would be greatly appreciated any at all

thankyou :(