Thankyou for your reply. I did phone your team and spoke to a lovely lady who was very patient and listened to me. I can't remember her name but I can't tell you how much it helped just to get everything off my chest (excuse the pun). I was very reassured to learn that another few weeks won't really make that much difference and as our NHS is working so hard to care for those that need it most I'm kind of ok with the wait - I'm trying to make the best of not knowing but find the nights really difficult when all is quiet and my mind works overtime. It's the not being able to talk to my loved ones about it that I find difficult, i know they would be supportive but I don't want to worry them unnecessarily. I haven't even told my husband how scared I am. 
Thankyou again for your reply. It's nice to know that someone out there genuinely cares enough to take the time to reply in such a nice way. I do hope one of the other ladies have some advice but until then STAY SAFE x