I am so scared

I was diagnosed with breast cancer that has already spread to axillary nodes, 3 weeks ago. I have had a CT and then MRI and Bone Scan yesterday, Christmas Eve. My lovely Dad died a week ago, a day before his 86th birthday, of Covid. My dear Mum has Alzheimer's and therefore will never know. I can't work as quite a high risk job, until I know what will happen to me. I am being reviewed on 29th Dec at the Breast Clinic with all my results, but I know, somewhere deep down, that this will be bad news. On 30 Nov, I was working F/T and feeling fine if stressed, and then I found the node. Trying to get through this time has been the darkest of my entire life. I have never fely so hopeless and frightened. Dottie

  • Hello Dottie, 

    I am so sorry to hear of your dreadful news, I can relate to the feeling of hopelessness and being frightened.

    I was diagnosed with stage 3 kidney cancer last Wednesday, which they have found have spread to my artery's. I am also terrified. I do not have much to offer in terms of words of support right now that you probably haven't already heard, however I think it's important to keep your mind occupied and positive. I am so sorry to hear you have recently lost your father. I am sending prayers to you tonight. You are stronger than you think.

    "If you're going through hell - keep going"
     

    Blessings & Love

    Hayley

  • My name is Ruth and im 54 yrs old I am married and have a 17 yr old child adopted from china

    I suffer from PCOS which caused  infertilty

    In Februaru 2020 I was diagnosed with fibrocystic breast disease 

    Three simple benign cysts appeared on left breast all aspirated mammogram in 2018 2019 feb 2020 all negative

    Ive been an occupational health nurse for over 35 yrs

    My life has been full of stress parentd died when I was 25 sister died aged 62 four years ago

    No history of breast or ovarian cancer in the family

    I like to drink too much of white wine

    found lump behind right nipple 4 weeks ago went to one stop breast clinic no fluid out of lump I knew radiographer looked horrified on ultrasound 

    Since february ive had terrible health anxienty telling people i didnt feel right people laughed and ignored me including my friends husband a gp

    Seen last week by consultant who told me it was cancer i screamed throwing myself around his office its grade 2 3cm

    Got to have ct scan totally terried worst xmas day ever