My lovely mum is dying. Not sure how long but it is very close. I have lived with her more or less since my dad died over 10 years ago. We have helped each other so much over the years. She was diagnosed with cancer and has needed more and more help but has carried on really brilliantly doing as much as she could by herself.
She has always been really supportive of me through lifes ups and downs. We had arguments of course as is normal but we're not ones for holding grudges so would quickly get over them and have a cup of tea! We talk to each other about things that nobody else really 'gets' if you know what I mean, I don't mean deep and heavy stuff, just day to day things.
I just don't know how I will cope without her. I have been breaking down and crying already which I try to hide from her as I don't want to upset her and she was never one for wallowing in self pity or letting me wallow either. I feel like I am weak for feeling this way, after all I am in my fifties and I know people much younger than me have to cope. I wish I could be strong.
