Hi my name is sharon and ive lived with a chronic blood cancer for 20 years now controlled with injections,but less about me,my mum got breast cancer about 3 years ago and i think this pain affects people in different ways my mum is like my best friend and without realising i had a total breakdown to be honest i don't remember much due to my state of mind ,but mum is in remission and all is good,cancer is a horrible disease i think it affects people in so many different ways,all i know is just show your grandad how much you love him tell him everyday as if it were his last,my heart is broken in two my dad who was only 70 this year was my best friend had been feeling poorley so he went to the hospital they did bloods said it was chronic back pain but i could see he was getting no better so i rang my family gp who is lovely and i said something is not right so with covid she sent a nurse to come and take his bloods within 3 days they got him an appointment at urology i dropped him off thursday 24 september for test within 2 hours they rang to say my dad my best friend had terminal cancer his lung had collapsed it was everywhere i honestley dont know how he managed the pain,2 days later they rang to say we needed to go to the hospital my dad died on the 28 september we were all with him as my sister is a head in the hospital so that is the one thing i am gratefull for as so many families because of covid can;t be with their families,my heart is broken i am in pieces but i look at my son jamie who is 30 this year and he is in bits his dad was not around so my dad was like his dad and i think you have to be strong for the people who need you and i have a 1 year old grandson now,don;t get me wrong the is days when i want to give up but dad  would tell me to pull myself together,we went to goldeneye in jamaica for his 70th last october we have lots of good memories so i think just let your grandad know how much you love him and stay strong for your nan she will need you more now than you know,but don;t keep it bottled up ive done this its not good talk to your family or if you ever need to chat just drop me a line.sending love sharon