I've been diagnosed with b-cell lymphoma, I am 34 & have about 8 lumps. It's nothing serious & radiotherapy will sort it out for now, although I've been told it's likely to return. So my problem is; I feel unworthy of my feelings if that makes sense. I'm quite anxious, I've had my first radiotherapy appointment & it was absolutely fine but I have my second tomorrow & even though I know what's coming I feel anxious & vunerable. I'm very lucky & have an amazing support network. My mum lives alone so is in my bubble and has come to stay while I have treatment but it feels so weird to tell other family/friends and not be able to give them a hug. I am not sick, not terminal & I'm healthy. Mentally, I'm drained. I hated having to tell my friends & family I have cancer & assured them it's very mild. However, I have received an abundance of cards & gifts & I don't feel like I deserve it. I suppose it's a very scary word but it was the build up that was worse for me rather than the diagnosis. I just don't know why I'm still so freaking anxious! Anyone else have similar feelings?
