I have my second ct scan in twelve months coming up. After T3N1 bowel cancer  Last December at the age of 48.I honestly feel more anxious about this one than the first. Been trying to push it in the back of my mind. But it's just there. Christmas is coming and will cancer ruin it again. I have two  children and really want them and us (my wife and myself) To be able to be happy.As I know how quickly things can not goto plan. I'm praying for at least one more chance for us all to enjoy. My GP has told me that everyone is happy with my progress. And on paper everything is going to plan.My biggest down fall has been Dr goggle. There are so many different facts out there and most are out of date and negative. But iv had to go through it. I have lynch syndrome witch my dear son may have inherited from me there's a 50% chance that may be the case.And we must wait until he's at least 19 before we can find out. so iv had to battle a few demons over the last 12 months.  And no doubt there will be some more to come. But today hopefully with a bit of luck we'll all be safe and happy. I'll get through these scans and my son will be lynch negative.