Hi Cookie,

I'm really sorry that you're going through this horror of cancer. Please , don't feel guilty and compare your experience to others, it's totally acceptable to feel afraid and unsure, angry, lost and a million other emotions . 

You go with how you feel, it's totally valid no need to feel guilty for feelings that others may have even worse.

Remeber you are strong, loved and not alone.  It may seem people solider on, but really I don't think they are. Being open about how you feel...coming here, its huge and brave. 

Fear is expected, the unknown, do you have someone to help you and talk when your feeling at your most afraid x  

The love for your beautiful girls, and no doubt theirs for you. Plan some normal, as if the C isn't here, film night, walks in the park or a coffee over a zoom! It can be all consuming, it might help to write down and keep a diary with a plan for normal first get everything off your chest..2nd what is our normal today...cooking a meal etc. 

Xx