Hi there ...

I had a grade 3... her 2 negative ... oestrogen positive breast cancer back in 2017 .. with total right masectomy... no lymph node effected.... so didn't need chemo and didn't want radio therapy as my ostio bones are really weak ... so opted out .. was put on tamoxifen for 5 years ... only made 2 before the side effects got too much ... but hay still here 3 years down the line ... doing o.k ... 

I started here with 5/6 other breast lasses ... all different stages and treatments.... and one started the thread "the good and bad" and more joined in along the way ... they've all gone back to their life post cancer... and one has had a beautiful baby boy and number 2 on it's way ... 

So yes it's a really scary time right now ... try not to do the "what ifs" or look too far ahead .. live in the day and take each problem as and when it comes up.... cancer wants us to lay down and never get up... to give in ... then it feels strong ... well you look it in the eye, and know your not alone ... there's lots of us right there with you ... so here's to kicking cancers butt ... and know it's o.k to have "loose it " days .. days where you cuss at cancer and have a good cry ... yell what ever you need to do ... then get back up and get ready to take it back on ... sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie x

Hi Chris's

Thanks so much for taking the time to reply, and with such a positive message.

Some days I am fine and feeling great and some days my thoughts become really dark and I can't see a way out of this. Your post has given me hope and reassurance that I needed today.

Can I ask if you ever had the oncotype test? 

Ann x

Hi there ..

Not sure if I had that test .. but do remember my surgeon sent my lump away to the U S A for a big analysis... which came back "low risk of spread" so weather that's Simerla,  I'm not sure ...  as there's so many different tests ... 

Your emotions are like being on the scariest rollercoaster ride ever ... positive one minute and crash down and really low emotions ... l made all my funeral plans while in those early days ... convinced that it was imminent... it's normal ... honestly I don't know anyone who wasn't sc scared going through this .. and later wonder how we came through as we would never think we'd done all that .. 

The definition of "brave" is being scared witless but you do it any way.... that's real bravery ... 

So don't forget there's no rainbows without tears ... it lets the pressure out .. 

But getting back in the cancer boxing ring... that's the best part ... not letting it keep you down .. it's not about winning or losing... it's about giving it a punch for a punch .. it may hurt our bodies but don't let it take away your spirit ... keep fighting ... one step at a time ... that's what my amazing daughter in law told me ... you can do this ... Chrissie xx

Hi Chris's

Thanks for your lovely messages today, they have literally been a lifeline on what has been a very tough few days, hopefully I will sleep a bit easier tonight.

Cancer is awful, it takes over all my thoughts to the point where u can barely function.. but I will be coming back to your messages every now and then for moral support.:happy:

x