Hi. I get what you mean. Ive been warned that chemo will be tough and theres a part of me that just wants to avoid it. But i suppose its like stepping stones, i have to do this to hopefully get me through to surgery then radiotherapy. Ive cried loads since i was diagnosed lol. Sometimes it makes us feel better. But my dr said to me, 'you can have a cry but then you need to move forward'.  I really hope thursday goes well for you and let me know how it goes

I'm coping surprisingly well to be honest I just want to get started !! The only thing that is really worrying me is actually going into hospital for the operation I know not many people do but I always think I'm not going to wake up from the anaesthetic. 

I just told family first and 3 close friends because we live away and I get asked enough questions by them without other people knowing but I'm slowly starting to let people know.  I just don't want people to now know me as " Karen with the cancer ! "

Is ' breast cancer now ' a website or app ?

Hope it goes well tomorrow with the chemo I will be thinking of you xx   

I go on the website but not sure if they have an app. Im seeking as much support as possible. I get what you mean about the operation. That terrifies me too as ive not had one before. And i think i wouldn't wake up too. But like my mum said to me, they do these things on a regular basis so they know exactly what they're doing. Im glad you're coping well. I was inpatient too about treatment. I was diagnosed on 25th june then they kept wanting more and more tests and it was getting me down. But got my full results and treatment plan 29th july. I'll let you know how i get on tomorrow (if you don't mind?!). Im trying to prepare myself for it lol

Hi Maxine 

I found that having a book to write everything in helps then at least you know if you've already asked a question or you may need more information on a question you've already asked. 

I'm ok though just had a phone call I'm going in ....now. 

Take care hope everything goes well with the results. 

Karen x

Hi Amy 

How did chemo go yesterday I was thinking about you. I hope it wasn't too bad and you wasn't sick with it. When is your next one ?

I ended up having surgery yesterday as they'd had a cancellation so I decided on mastectomy and had lymph nodes removed. Just sat waiting for the doctor so I can go home. 

There's nothing like getting in your own bed !!

Take care 

Karen x

Hi karen. Glad to hear you've had your surgery. I bet thats a big relieve for you. Im guessing you're home now? Lol. I had my chemo yesterday. Giving it to me was ok and they said i should expect side effects by today. I was sick within a few hours of getting home and my head feels heavy and sore. But not too bad at the moment. Was everything ok with your surgery? Hope you're on the mend soon

Hi Amy 

I know you were dreading the sickness part but i suppose as long as it subsides and its not continually it'll be bearable. Are you aloud to take pain relief for the heavy head or have you just got to ride it out ? I'm dreading starting it !! Is it every 3 weeks ? They had me down for 6 sessions at every 3 weeks but because I've had the op first I don't know if it'll change. 

Still waiting to be discharged !!! I've been packed for past 4 hours hahaha!!

Seen the consultant she said everything went well but one of the nodes was a little bigger than it should be so they've ended up taking more than originally said so just got to wait for results to see if it's spread if so it'll be another op !! So fingers crossed it hasn't. 

I've just heard my name so I think I'm ready to go. Speak soon and get some rest xx

Ive been given loads of ant sickness to take home, so im making sure i take everything thing available to me lol. And i phoned the pharmacy to make sure i can take paracetamol and they said thats fine. Im a nightmare patient! Ive got the same as you, 6 cycles, every 3 weeks. How are you feeling now? I bet you're glad just to get home

Hi maxine. How did it go with on thursday? Hope you're ok