Hi,

I know it's impossible but I'm just after reassurance really. I had an MRI 2 years ago because of a lot of cysts in my right breast and a large fibroadenoma in my left breast. It's been there ages, doesn't cause me any discomfort and whilst large around 4cm I decided to leave it in. 
Fast forward 2 years I have had 3 biopsies one in my left breast two in my right. One for a new fibroadenoma, one for the old and one for a complex cyst that was blood filled and had solid componants. All benign and as thought. 
I have had many cysts drained last week I had 12ml removed from each breast. They have also find 4 fibroadenoma (one is 3cm under my nipple already biopsies) in my right breast and now an extra one in my left next to the already large one. There were so many she did not even biopsy after performing the drains. I am emotionally drained from the constant worry and invasive treatments. I know I should feel lucky that so far it is good news but now they want them all removing and I am awaiting to see the surgeon. So very different from the normal routine I am used to. My paternal grandma was diagnosed at the same age I am now and passed away at 52. My other grandma has also been and recovered last year now in remission. I am apart from my mum the next oldest girl. My breast are small a 30c and are so lumpy I've admitted I don't know what is new or old anymore... I know the surgery will leave them disfigured and have asked for a mastectomy. I don't feel it is drastic I've just had enough. I have three children my biggest fear is not cancer but leaving them behind and the thought causes me constant anxiety. Has anyone got similar experiences with so many cysts and fibroadenomas? 
I have been told already my breast are dense with almost no body fat over 90% and I think this is causing half the problems I know it increases my risk. 
I have already booked a private appointment for a mastectomy and reconstruction in November. I am that serious about it. What are the chances of them performing the full surgery if they are going to take so much out anyway? I constantly ready journals and chats about my risks and to be fair my breast consultant has been so wonderful. I'm just tired now surly all the prodding and biopsies will cause issues in the long run? Or am I wrong? 
sorry for the 1000 questions and ramblings! 
Much love,

Angie. x