lost my beautiful special mum july 9th.

she had a long happy life was the matriarch of the family .

she had a lot of tragedy and heartache in her early years

but in the latter part of life lived life to the full and was loved by so so many 

we sheltered and protected her 16 weeks .

taking her shopping for her and chatting in the garden .

she looked like she was coping until one day.

we all work in medicine so kept our distance 

we found mum bent over unable to cope.

downstairs was how it always was .but when went upstairs she hadnt been coping at all.

mum passed away in hospital .

we all feel robbed.

15 weeks for absolutely nothing.

our hearts are broken .the void is unbearable 

I want to ring her up to chat. and have even rang the number knowing I wouldnt get an answer.

my mum was my best friend also my daughter and sons 

I carnt cope .wake up in a panic .

have sobbed every day .

I have no motivation for anything .not wanting to see or speak with anyone 

I honrestly never thought I could feel such pain and 

despair. 

the sadness I feel is overwhelming dont even wznt to get up or eat .

am I going crazy 

I miss her and want her to come back ehich of course is not possible.