Anxiety Girl Awaiting Scan For Long Hard Lump

Hi there

 

I found this chat after repeatedly searching out info about breast lumps and while I have convinced myself I have the big 'C' word I have enjoyed reading people's positive stories where they found their lumps were not cancer.

 

A month or so ago I started to get pain in my right breast at the side and at the top in the front above my nipple. I was positive I could feel lumps and bumps and so complemented by my existing anxiety I became an obsessive breast checker. I have had my breasts checked before over the years with doctors finding nothing concerning. I went to get my breasts checked a few weeks ago and they found nothing concerning but told me to go back in a few weeks. I went back the Monday just gone, the pain that lasted a month has now subsided (it wasnt my normal cycle pain it was worse extending into my armpit but it has thankfully now gone) however I did notice a lump where the pain was just above my right nipple. It is a firm painless bump, more like a ridge that sort of pops when in move my fingers up and down over it. I have had it a while now and am sure it has gotten bigger or that I am used to feeling it now. It doesn't feel like the other squishy little bumps I feel all over this feels hard. The doctor examined me and felt nothing concerning both times but I insisted I could feel something. She wanted a second opinion and called me the next day to say they have referred me for an ultrasound scan. She reassured me that she still felt there was nothing concerning but knew I wouldn't settle until a specialist had a feel and a look as I have been literally bruising myself black trying to find matching lumps in the other side.

 

I have my ultrasound scan tomorrow (well today now technically since I'm writing this at midnight and my scan is at 10:30am). It was my 30th Birthday yesterday and I have this horrid feeling that my 30th Birthday is the last day I will be "cancer free" as I'm positive they will find this lump and it will be cancerous. I have severe anxiety and I don't know how I would cope mentally if I had a positive diagnosis after further tests. Ofcoarse this lump or ridge or whatever it is might also be absolutely nothing or at worst a cyst that needs draining. I am so scared and worried :(

  • There's a very good chance that could be completely innocent xxx I talk from experience of ridges, bumps and lumps in my boobs over the years. 
    The ridge you describe - mine feels similar on one boob. I've had it for years and years - it's just normal breast tissue (although I have been diagnosed with cystic tissue/boobs). Also have a popping mass in my lower boob. Had that since 2002 I think - again, determined as normal tissue. Most lumps are not breast cancer xxx 
    Please let us know how you get on. 

  • Hi citygirl111 thanks for replying :)

     

    Yes I know what you mean when you say "popping" ridges and masses. I have similar on my underboob (where my bra bone sits). It's bigger on the right but present in both breasts. I had this checked before and the doc said it was thickened tissue due to having  bigger boobies and the weight pressing down where the tissue folds and also wearing bras. When I had them checked recently the doc felt that area again and said it is cartilage against my rib cage. The lump/bump above my right nipple feels similar so I'm hoping you are correct and it turns out to be fatty firm tissue that's just bigger in the right breast. Although I'd be happy with any diagnosis that isnt cancer. The lady i saw at my GP was really good referring me for a scan when she couldnt feel anything wether she missed it twice or genuinely just felt normal bumps and ridges she pushed for a scan for my mental health as she said obsessive checking to the point of bruising is technically a form of self harm. I think I scared her when I said "Its worrying me so much I feel like slicing it open myself and having a look haha". That sounds very macabre but I have a dark/blunt sense of humour. Either way it got me a scan!

     

    Thankyou I will let you know what the breast cancer folk (not sure what their technical title is) say tomorrow when I have my scan. I dunno if I'm more scared of a diagnosis or finding my way around a hospital haha! :)

  • P.S I'm so sorry for the spelling mistakes in my reply, I was typing so quick for some silly reason! xx

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    Hi StephyJo,

    Welcome to our forum and, a Very Happy Belated Birthday for yesterday. I can assure you that we all feel anxious whenever we find a breast lump. I am glad to hear that your GP hasn't felt the lump that you're concerned about. I can fully understand why you cannot accept this when you haven't had any tests. Your GP obviously does too, so I am glad to hear that she has referred you for an ultrasound.

    I sincerely hope that the ultrasound doesn't find anything untoward tomorrow. Try not to keep examining yourself so frequently, as you will only succeed in making your breast sorer. It is easier to find lumps when you soap yourself well under the shower or in the bath, but try to limit this to no more than once a week.

    You say that you don't know how you would cope if you got a positive diagnosis. Don't worry about that just now. Try to cope from day to day just now. There's time enough to worry about this if you get a positive diagnosis, which I sincerely hope that you won't.

    Pain seldom accompanies a cancer diagnosis. Do please keep us posted as to how you get on. We are always here for you.

    I am hoping and praying that you get the all clear.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine

     

    Thankyou so much for your kind words. You guys are so calming, I could literally feel myself taking a deep breath while reading your replies. I knew it was a good idea to open up on this forum. I'm normally the shoulder people cry on but I've found myself an emotional mess over this haha. I think whay makes it worse is two people close to me (not family) have terminal breast cancer and in feeling my own lump I see myself in their shoes IF my lump is bad.

     

    I feel so sorry for those who do receive positive diagnosis and admite those who manage to cope with it day go day. I'm a mess when I worry about stupid little things but that's part of my existing anxiety. I think once this examination is over positive or negative I will speak to a doctor about requesting some medication if my anxiety doesn't improve.

     

    As for my booby. I have no family history of cancer and the doctor didn't feel an obvious lump so those two things keep me a little positive. It sounds bizarre but I think I am more afraid of being all "It's nothing it's fine" then boom they tell me it's bad news and I'm like "Oh sh*t I wasn't prepared for that".

     

    Thankyou for the Birthday wishes and hoping I get an all clear. I will let you guys know what they say tomorrow :) xx

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    Hi StephyJo,

    I am hopeful that your GP is right, but even if the worst comes to the worst you can stll cope with it.

    I lost my Mum to secondary breast cancer 10 years before I was diagnosed with breast cancer 11 years ago. I had a second bout 10 years ago. First time I had a lumpectomy followed by Tamoxifen for a year. Second time around, I had a double mastectomy, followed by Letrozole for 6 years. I stopped taking this in July 2017. 

    There has been just no comparison between the diagnosis, treatment and after care which we've both had. So many more people now survive a cancer diagnosis than they did before.

    If you are going to be in hospital for 10.30am, I hope that you are in your bed by now. All will go well for you, as you will find the care team very pleasant and helpful.

    I've got my fingers crossed for you tomorrow.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

     

  • Hi guys

     

    So I had my ultrasound and the lady said she couldn't see anything other than healthy breast tissue. Nothing at all where I could feel my bump. She scanned my lymph and they are fine too. Nothing concerning at all. I asked what causes the hard ridge/lump I can feel and she said breasts naturally have lumps and bumps and some women naturally get firm lumps and bumps or firmer or thicker tissue in their breasts. It's always good to get them checked out but 99% of the time they are just firm bumpy bits of breast tissue or glands or fat.

    So I've got the all clear! I'm so happy. Because I have this bump that I can feel though I need to try and curb my checking and not poke and prob at it obsessively so I've decided (as advised by one of my friends) to only allow myself to check on the 1st of every month then not check any other time so I'm not obsessing over each bump and nodule and ridge in my breast and bruising myself.

     

    As I left though a lady was crying, my appointment was pushed back 45 mins and she was the lady who was in before me, I'm guessing her news wasn't good. I wanted to comfort her but obviously during this pandemic you can't. It has made me appreciate the services provided to those with breast cancer though so I want to get involved in stuff in the future to help Cancer research funding especially now I've had to use the service myself.

     

    Thanks again for all your messages of support :)

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    Hi StephyJo,

    This is just the news that we were hoping for. I'm absolutely delighted for you. I am glad to hear that you are going to follow your friend's advice and only check monthly. If you do this in the shower or bath, using plenty of soap, you shouldn't be nearly so tender afterwards.

    Here's hoping that you continue to remain clear.
    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi 

    Jus wondering if u could advise me, I've been having a pain in my boob for a while found a lump got referred to hospital and they said all fine, it seems to be throbbing more and hurting and getting bigger maybe jus me, any advise wha I should do? 

     

    Thanks 

    Jodie 

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    Hi Jodie,

    Welcome to our forum. I am not a doctor, but we are always advised to get any change in our breasts checked out by a doctor. The sooner this is done, the better the outcome usually is should anything untoward be found. Not all lumps are cancerous. If the hospital said that your last one was fine , the chances are that it was a benign cyst or something like that.

    Please make an appointment with your GP as soon as possible and get this investigated, if only for your own peace of mind. During these strange times, your first appointment may be a telephone consultation, but your GP can still see you after that if s/he deems it necessary.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    I hope that all turns out well again.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx