Hi, I'm new here and I'm so scared at the moment, I have health anxiety and anxiety in general, I've convinced myself I have cervical cancer and don't know what to do. I have no support around me as the person I thought was my support turns out to not be.

I had my little boy 10 months ago and since then I've been getting spotting at ovulation, cramping, nausea, migraines, foggy head, my periods are regular. My smear test was well over due (something I'm so ashamed of as my last was 10 years ago) but I finally went 2 weeks ago. The nurse said I have cervical erosion but the rest of my cervix looked healthy. I think I would also bleed if I had sex but we haven't since he was born.

I've been and had a transvaginal scan at the hospital  and everything looks fine apparently, they saw a couple of nabothian cysts on my cervix but I was told this is normal. I've had blood tests and a ca125 which came back clear. I'm now waiting for my smear results and I am completely convinced it will tell me I have cancer. I apparently can't have a colposcopy until results are in.

I'm going out of my mind with worry, I feel sick each day, I'm so upset and just look at my little boy each day and feel so sad that I'm going to put him through all of this and may not see him grow up. I'm so scared. I'm worried the nurse is wrong with the erosion and the cysts aren't cysts. 

I keep thinking surely if It was advanced then a tumor would have shown up on the scan? I'm trying to prepare  myself for which it could be. 

I'm so sorry if this post isn't in the right place or inappropriate as I feel bad posting here without a diagnosis yet. 

Just don't know what to do

Thanks for reading