Hi Sarah, i m 37 and have a rather large mass on my right breast which they biopsied and had a ct scan. They are pretty sure it is cancer and possibly in a couple of lymph nodes. I am waiting to find out what stage and what my treatment will be. Also I work in the same hospital! I find out friday. Quite honestly I very scared and this has got to be the longest week of my life! 

Lu xxx

Hi Saraeileen

Sorry to hear of you being  diognosed with breast cancer.

Like you i was told on the day i went that the lump i had found in my right breast was cancer.

A week later it was confirmed and i was told it had spread to my lympth nodes as it was in two of the lymoth nodes that were taken out from the biopsies  from under my arm.i was told it looked like grade  1 .

Ive had 2 scans scince  bone scan on wed just gone , and the next day the Thursaday i had a ct scsn at 5pm.

I have not been told the name if the cancer yet, you have said  yours is triple negarive .i have  read about the tyoes of bresst cancer and the names of them, but im not sure yet which one i have .

Its a scarty time , but this chat  forum's  helpful , you can learn a lot of things on here.

I  like you feel.the need to vent sometimes.

Always here to chat if needed. 

Hi Lu, nice to meet you although circumstances are rubbish! I want to say try to keep calm but I was an absolute wreck so I can’t talk lol. I am usually pretty laid back but this just broke me. Some days I found it hard to breathe. If I can say anything though it would be once I sat down with the surgeon and knew the details and plan my anxiety disappeared. I think because I had a plan and could focus on that

 Is it the biopsy results you go for Friday? I’m wishing you all the luck in the world that it is good news for you.. hopefully they are wrong but if they aren’t you can hear the plan and hopefully start to feel some calm and focus on planning. 

I know I’m not anywhere near an expert but I’m here if you want to talk... about anything even if it’s just to take your mind off it. I constantly googled and I think it just made me worse cos all the story’s are individual and not yours. This is the only site I found with good information but I wish I would of joined last week and spoke to people here as I think it may have calmed me a bit. 

Hope your ok, and don’t forget I’m here if you need  to talk xx 

Hi Saraheileen,

Thanks for replying! Feeling like a wreck would definately be one way of describing it! It all I seem to be able to think about etc. I get biopsy and ct scan results on friday as mammogram suggested it was in some lymph nodes! So as you can imagine I am feeling pretty wrotten. I sufffer from anxiety already so that has already gone through the roof and i'm trying to eat but everything taste horrible at the mo because of being so anxious. As you can imagine, all the worst case scenarios are going thtough my head. I getting ready for them to say surgery and the rest. I just want it gone! Did you have breast cancer yourself or another type?

Thanks for replying, same to you if you want to chat anytime

Luxx

Hi, aah it’s rubbish isn’t it. I found mine just over 3 weeks ago and it’s been like an absolute whirlwind! 

I’m seeing the consultant again 2 weeks yesterday and I’m gonna write all my questions down. When I seen him Thursday I only wrote down all the positives he told me so i can look at the piece of paper every morning and when I start to have a wobble. 

Hopefully you will get all of the answers you need when you go. Keep us posted and I’m here too if you want to talk about anything or just to vent

Big hugs xx

Sounds like a good idea! All I can think about is all negative things at the moment! Think morning is the worst when you wake up and it hits you. At the moment I don't think I can handle anymore bad news!

Seeing them on friday to find out whats whats

Same to you and big hugs

xxxx

aah try not to panic as much as you can, you don’t know what they are going to say so try not to second guess them. 

I know exactly what you mean I woke up this morning and it was the 1st thing on my mind... only positive is I usually I wake up with it on my mind with my hand on my boob lol  But today not so bad. I think before I was hoping that I would wake up and find it had gone :(  unfortunately I know this is not gonna happen now so I think that’s why I’m not constantly feeling it. Yes mine is triple negative ductal breast cancer. I’ve got to go Tuesday for another biopsy cos there is 2 lumps but they only biopsied one first time round ‍♀️ 

Definitely  just try and deal in facts though if you can, no matter how much you read,  your story is different to anyone elses. It’s definitely easier said than done for me to be saying this, and even though I do it myself I know I shouldn’t be lol 

Here is one story that might help you though my mum found a lump 6 years ago. She hadn’t felt it it was picked up. Hers was Estrogen positive so was feeding off that. She was given Letrozole which stopped it from growing  and then she had a lumpectomy, it was in some of her lymph nodes under her arm so she had them removed too. She had a little bit of treatment afterwards and now 6 years later she has been discharged is 75 now and fighting fit. I hope this helps your anxiety to know that sometimes it’s not as bad as it seems. 

Hope your feeling a little better today. Try and eat and enjoy the sun as much as you can.  Keep yourself busy, keeping our strength up is important for us right now. I find that if I’m sitting and not doing anything I start to feel like I can’t breathe a little bit but when I’m doing something I forget about not being able to breathe so I know it’s in my head and I’m just giving myself time to start to panic about it all. 

Im here if you need me 

xx

Dear Saraheileen,

Yes same here too, woke up thinking of it started crying, thinking of worst case scenarios and that i m going to get more awful news Friday, the while lot! 

Thats great news about your Mum. I really shouldn't speculate with mine but as you know, thats what the brain tends to do.

It feels like a bomb has just gone off in my life! I managed to eat some breakfast this morning. Hope you were able to as well!

I just keep thinking , its only Sunday and I've till Friday. 

The sitting down thing and feeling like you can't breathe is definately true, its horrible. It's the trying to do things and you forget for a bit and then its back again in your brain!

Going to try to have an ok day hope you do too!

Here if you need me as well.

Take care

luxxx

aah that’s good that you’ve eaten something, I’ve had a coffee and a little something too. 

That’s it try and keep your mind occupied on other things, do something that you enjoy doing. Are you with family? I’m gonna make a roast today(not that I particularly enjoy that) but it will definitely take my mind off it a little. I’m also gonna order some new stones for my garden, that  should kill Some time in the week. I’ve got to wait for two weeks now to find out if the other lump is also the same thing as only having the biopsy on that one on Tuesday so I’m thinking it’s such a long way away before I can even start any planning,  as whatever happens with that one depends on the treatment plan. I’m hoping it’s something benign cos that will make it a little simpler with regards to plan of what happens next. 

Hope you have as good a day as possible and manage to keep yourself occupied a little. 

Sarah xx

Dear Sarah,

Yes I have my two teenagers and partner so we are going to have a bbq in the garden. Just had a massive wobble again!

I could really do with phoning the cancer nurses for a bit of support but being sunday they arn't there!

Going try and keep myself myself occupied. Went our for a bike ride yesterday so they was nice.

The dog keeps jumping all over me as well so she'll want a walk!

Have a good day, i m sure the roast will be lovely!

Lucy x