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Hi I'm Betty my mum always call me Betty Im  new on here and don't know how to start explaining myself.  at the moment  feeling extreme overwhelming sadness as my mum is slowing fading away.  I'm originally from Belize from Central America. I went home to see my mum feb/March this year. Mum had a endoscopy and as lots of problems going on with her she has stop eating and sipping only liquid. She is on drip iv but it's only helping a little. 
I feel this way as I'm far away and just want to be home to hold and love her up. I don't want my mum leave me as I don't know how I will cope being over here on my own. I have my son but I just want to be alone. I have friends but they telling me I got to be strong I don't want to hear all this . I'm an emotional wreck. I don't want to do anything and I don't want to eat. I'm continually fighting this feeling as all I want to do is give up. How I'm going to be in a few weeks I don't know. I went to go forward and then I go backwards. My entire family is in Belize and getting there now is not possible. I talk to my family and I cry and cry. They help a little as I see them but then I go back to gloomy dark place again. I don't know if I can live without my mum. I love her deeply in my heart and it feels my heart is slowly being rip out my chest. I try to be brave but I'm not .thanks for reading x
 

 

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    Hello Betty, 

    A warm welcome to our forum. I am so sorry to hear about your mum. This must be so hard for you especially as your entire family is in Belize and it isn't possible for you to get there at the moment. It's normal to feel like you want to withdraw in your shell at the moment and want to be left alone. It's good that you have caring friends and even though they are telling you things that you don't want to hear at the moment, the fact that they are reaching out shows that you mean a lot to them even if you don't feel ready yet to engage too much. It's good to know that they're there.

    You have come to the right place Betty to talk to others who understand how you are feeling and what you are going through at the moment. At a time when you are feeling emotionally overwhelmed, the forum can be a good space to offload and chat to others who are in a similar place at the moment. 

    It might be worth also talking to your GP about how you are feeling and the intense emotional suffering this is causing you. Your GP will be able to help I am sure and give you some helpful tips to help you cope during this extremely stressful time.

    I will now let our members come and say hello and share their story with you. 

    Best wishes, 

    Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

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