Hello ladies,

I found a lump in right upper breast yesterday morning and phoned gp, I had an appointment with mask and dr in full ppe! I've been referred to hospital and should have appointment by next week. I've been reading everyones posts and although extremely worried I have felt comforted that people are out there supporting each other. I havnt said anything to my family yet and dont want to worry them. Due to Corona virus I'm the only one working at the moment, I have a husband, 10 yr old and older daughter all at home in lockdown. I dont want to shatter their security bubble until I have definite diagnosis. Just reaching out to people who will understand what this feels like x

I feel for you. I found mine 7 weeks ago but waited till the panic over covid had dropped a bit. All I can say is try not to google I'm the worst for it which is how I ended up on here. They are brilliant at the breast clinic and out of 10 of us who were there today I was the only one who got bad news, hopefully you'll be like the others who just went home relieved xxx

Thank you so much replying Bex. My mind is in overdrive and I keep imagining that they knew it was bad and were holding something back from me. Did you have a similar experience at your mammogram?  They seemed to be sure it was cancer. The ultrasound on my lymph was clear so I'm clinging onto that but I've no idea how to get through the next 9 days. When I think about it, my heart starts pounding and I start shaking.

I'm so glad you feel better now that you have answers and can get in with getting better. 
 

thanks again for the reply I just don't know what to do with myself xxx

I Completely understand what you’re going through right now and I get that you don’t want to worry your family, but  couldn’t you just tell your husband? The waiting for appointments & then results is incredibly hard and you need support, I only told my husband, nobody else and I honestly don’t know how I would’ve got through these last couple of weeks if I hadn’t. Obviously we all cope with things differently though and this forum is a great comfort, reading other people’s posts & stories helps a lot. Please try to keep in the forefront of your mind that the majority of breast lumps turn out to be benign. You’re not alone & I’m here if you want to talk, sending you a big hug,

Bex x

Hi. Ive just joined forum as well as in similar situation but with different cancer.  Like you Im scared and reaching out on this forum.  But you are not alone and I am sure we are probably sharing some of the same emotions that otheres on this site may hae worked through.  I was told this site offers the best support and I hope it givse you the support to help you get through.  All the best to you. Take care.

I know, it’s just so hard to try to stop your mind from imagining all sorts of scenarios, the dark thoughts creep in - you can’t help it. All you can do is try to rationalise and distract your mind as much as possible. It really is still highly likely that it’s benign, they really don’t know for sure until the pathology results come back. When I had my mammogram, ultrasound & biopsy done they honestly didn’t give anything away, I did feel very sorry for myself after the biopsy, I think up until that point I kind of told myself that maybe I’d imagined the lump but obviously they found something there for them to do the biopsy, it all messes with your head so much but it honestly does get better. Be kind to yourself, try to do something relaxing that you enjoy, sending you a big hug,

Bex x

Are you still waiting for results? I can't believe I've ended up here. I'm just so shocked. I've already found it comforting being on here so I think it's a safer place to be than google. I hope you're getting through the week okay .

x

Thanks Bex, they definitely told me to prepare for it be cancer and I'm trying to cling onto the fact the ultrasound on my lymph was clear. If I know it's treatable then I know what I'm a dealing with and I can move forwards but the uncertainty is agonising and i'm definitely going to the darkest places. I'm traumatised by the most terrifying experience of lying there and then telling me and my whole body just started shaking. I felt so useless. X

It is really good that your axillery lymph nodes look clear on the ultrasound, it’s obviously better if the cancer hasn’t spread. Mine look clear too so I’m hoping the surgery will just be a straight forward lumpectomy with clear margins. It is such a shock to the system - I doubt most people on here ever would’ve thought they would be coming on  here for support, but unfortunately that’s the nature of cancer, it doesn’t discriminate. I never thought in a million years that it would be me, I naively thought that because I have no family history of breast cancer, I’m a non-smoker, don’t drink, only 39 etc etc it would never happen to me, until it does. I know it sucks, but if you do find out for sure that it’s cancer, we’ll kick it’s butt together! Hope you’re feeling ok this morning, try to keep as busy as you can,

Bex x