Welcome and don't worry about rambling.

Health anxiety is really hard.

Glad breast lump 4 years ago was fine. PLEASE avoid Dr Google, from personal information he has needlessley scared me witless for no reasons when I seee the NHS. 

Do contact your GP and tell them all you have told us. 

At a guess, it could just be some rash, but GP will help you.

I find that ringing first thing on a morning helps. I had a biopsy done on mouth, i was scared to go to GP mid march, due to small lump, I used to smoke, vape and now misuse lozeenges and gum which are also carcinogenic. I rang 111 who contacted my GP and advised me also to contact them, they got  me in quick. 

GP thought it was ulcer but said to come back 2 weeks later if lump still there which it was, but corona restricted visits to surgery, so that same Dr phoned and got me a biopsy booking which I had done on Monday.

Sorry you are having panic attacks are convinced yu're going to die. Don't feel dramatic and silly.

If surgery engaged on phone its ok to ring 111 and let them know you cant get through, Drs still want to speak to people despite corona.

You're not wasting everyone's time. 

Anxiety is a terrible thing, we imagine worse case scenarios. Maybe GP can refer you for non drug anxiety treatment, there is CBT online which helps anxiety and other relaxation methods, that is the only thing I would use google for, positive help with anxiety.

You're not wasting my time.

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Thank you so much for your reply. 

I've made a promise to myself to not go on Google and also not to check myself multiple times a day. 

I've tried Cbt and it didn't work very well. I've joined an online community for anxiety where everyone is lovely. 

I will be phoning the GP Monday, I don't want to but I know I have to. Its like being stuck between a rock and a hard place, if I don't speak to my GP I will worry my self sick and never get any answers but when I speak to them I find it hard to believe there is nothing wrong and il still worry. I keep telling myself well if it is the worst case scenario then worrying is not gonna change that. 

I'm just going to take on day at a time and try everything I can to relax. 

Once again thank you so much for your reply 

@Anxious.mummy

Good idea, making promise re: dr google

Sorry CBT didn't work very well. Glad you joined an online community for anxiety where everyone is lovely. 

I know it's Monday today, but it's bank holidays so you could phone tomorrow.

It's good that while you don't want to, you know you have to. Hopefully it will help you stop stuck between a rock and a hard place, if you don't speak to my GP you will worry yourself sick, and never get any answers.

They will refer you if they suspect anyting, I only had a tiny match head sized mouth lump and I got referred, even though doc thought it was initially only an ulcer and even when he did refer me, he sounded posiitve and said he was only referring me as guidance says cancer cant totally be ruled out.

Taking one day at a time and try everything you can to relax is a great idea.