Struggling

My mum 5 weeks ago was diagnosed with terminal bowel cancer, I hate that word terminal. My mum is a nurse of 44 years so she understands what is going to happen she use to work with cancer patients. She actually says  don't hate the cancer it is only your body gone wrong, I hate it though.

She is 84 and just had both her knees replaced and starting to go out and enjoy life again  She has always been my rock I had problems growing up dad left home etc etc. We have always been so close and she has supported me and I know that everyone says it but I really would not be where I am now without her. 

The doctors can only estimate how long we have together obviously because everyone is  different. Now it is my time to he her rock, and her son but I am struggling now already and she knows it. 

I have a beautiful support wife and two kids.  But my wife lost her mum at 48 not long ago. It is good to cry It helps,

I am very lucky my wife is in the care industry she she has been a massive help sorting out the things she will need and is allowed

My mum is in hospital she has just had a colostomy operation to make her more comfortable. But it sadly turns out that she has had symptoms of the cancer  for a long time and have been missed I believe this is the case quite a lot with bowl rectal cancer.  

I have read a lot of these posts and they have helped me.