So never joined any chat room - this is just a start to a journey that and may be all ok - I am a mental health nurse/therapist and I tell people every day to stick to the facts. I have ignored symptoms of fatigue and what I thought was pain in chest due to stress and it turns out I have a lump - whilst I recognise that for most it all turns out ok, waiting for 2 weeks to gain this information has taught me a new level of worry, all the self talk cannot erase the what if thought - I am finding myself behaving differently and whilst I have only told 2 friends and partner they are also behaving differently - I guess this message was to connect with others who understand what this very strange experience feels like