Hi. I had breast cancer 2016/17. Long story short i was awarded early retirement from work and have a small pension. I'm 52. I don't feel ready even now to work, I gave neuropathy in my feet from the chemo...it's plain annoying. ...not an excuse either, guess I love being at home. I have a small amount of money from my parents inheritance, they both passed recently. So I feel financially secure. I have 3 kids, only 1 at home aged 10.

Now...I'm now looking at my life and husband . I'm not happy. Many reasons , but 1 I can't find it in my heart to forgive. He was more than useless during my cancer treatment and care. He buried his head in the sand and I guess I enabled that a little by keep saying "I'm ok!" . The word I'd use is narcissistic. 

So I plucked up courage Tuesday and told him I want him to leave. The enormity of it has hitme today and he keeps begging me to change my mind. We've been married 10 years. A small part of me thinks yes, that'd be easier. He says he can't afford to pay for the mortgage here plus a new place. He won't go to his parents house. I' offered to give him some money to start him in a flat ,about 5kish. But he says I should sell the house instead. There's about 60k equity in it, so he'd get 30. But I'd struggle to get somewhere to live with my daughter for a small budget. 

I haven't told her yet, not until it's "sorted". I feel physically sick all the time. It's a massive thing potentially to go through. But I want to be happy. Any advice? X