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Having a Meltdown

clare341
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My past 3 smear tests have required a colposcopy - which has been extremely difficult, mainly due to my agonising fear of hospitals and the fact that I find smears painful enough.

All previous proceedures have been unsucsessfull due to a number of things, but mostly that as soon as I step inside the hospital, I freak out and am unable to calm down enough to continue with the proceedure.

Last time they prescribed me diazepam, but it made absolutely no difference and my body still refused to comply.

Personally, the only way I can see them getting anywhere is to knock me out, but they seem reluctant to do this. 

I know how important it is but my body/brain just won't cooporate and I am scared if there is something wrong and they can't investigate it will just get worse.

Has anyone else had any similar problems or can anyone advise?

  • Hi clare341,

    I'm sorry to read about your worries surrounding this, although of course I understand.

    Ultimately any tests and procedures are for your own health and wellbeing and to look after you, so it's really important that you keep up with it all. These sorts of things are never easy but it's of course in your best interests.

    Try not to let your mind wander to 'what ifs' and try to stay in the moment and take things one step at a time. It's a little cliched but it often helps.

    Wishing you all the best,

    Ben
    Cancer Chat Moderator

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    Hi, 

    I suffer with the exact same thing. Tried smears at the doctors and unsuccessful. I've been referred to the hospital for a colposcopy but I know as soon as I get in the room I'll break down crying with anxiety. I just can't see me having it done unless under general anaesthetic. 

    Have you managed to get anywhere with this? 

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