Not sure if i am in the right place but feel like i need some kind of help or guidance. My story is an odd one started about 3 years ago with a case of reactive arthritis in my knee which gave me 2 weeks in hospital and lost of tests ,the tests turned up an abnormal anyurism/connection from my pulmonary artery which they decided to remove my left uper lobe of my lung to remove risk of blood clots and stroke. Following the operation they found cancer in the anyurism and immediately started tests as they thought it was secondary. After 8 weeks of waiting to have my last scan due to having to wait 8 weeks post surgery to have the PET scan I am so lucky to say that i have been told no other cancer has been found. So i powered through all the waiting didnt dwell on any of it just concentrated on recovering and just lived one appointment to the next so why now do i feel awful just not myself. All my friends say i must feel amazing having got the best news and i know i should feel like that but i dont. I feel down and sad and short tempered and no matter how hard i try i cant move on from this. I feel like i have no right when i know people dont get these chances which makes me want to shake myself even more.