Hi 

I dont even know where to begin so....September of 2019 my mam sat me and my family down to tell us she was diagnosed with stage 3 breat cancer and I took it as quite a shock, only recently she had been talking about her friend who has been diagnosed but I never thought it would happen to my mam. A few months ago I couldnt even sit in the room if someone was talking about it without tearing up and I couldnt talk about it without crying. I feel so guilty talking about it to people or crying with them even though it helps because I feel like I am putting all my problems on them so Iv come here.

Since being told Iv become such an angry and emotional person like Iv never been before.I snap over small things and cant control sometimes the words that come out of my mouth because of it even though I very rarely mean what I am saying. May of last year I graduated from school and started college. Everything this year is so much different to how it was this time last year. Im only 18 years old and have so much of my life ahead of me but I started in one college didnt like it and moved to another doing a comletly different course. I dont know what I am doing ot where i want to go with my life at the minute and cancer thrown in on top of that has made this year the most difficult year of my life.Cancer feels like a big mountain infront of me that I have to climb before this is all over but that just seems like it will never end. Her last chemo session is at the end of this month then surgery and radiation will start.All I can think about is the day that she gets the all clear but that seems like a mointain away from where we are now. I hope somebody else feels the same way and cancer really has turned my whole world upside down