I don't really know what I'm asking here. I've recently returned to work from maternity and my husband and I thought we were winning at life having mastered our new routines, childcare etc.
10 days ago I randomly coughed up lots of blood and clots on finishing work. Went to A&E where a chest X-ray revealed a huge shadowy mass on the right side of my chest. The A&E doctor spoke to me in platitudes such as modern medicine is wonderful, take each day as it comes etc. I had an ECG to check I was stable enough for home so I could go back to the kids.
Next day, I had blood tests and the doctor at the ambulatory care unit explained it could be tumour, leaking heart? Or a blood vessel that's gone. He told us to expect the worst and sent me for a CT scan last Monday.
He's reviewed the results and asked I go in, accompanied by my spouse, on Friday. Given he doesn't want to see me immediately I'm guessing it's not an imminent blood or heart issue.
The wait is awful. How on earth do you cope with the not knowing?
