Hello all,

I wondered if I could have your advice please. I have recently broke up with my ex (in August) after 5 years. I distanced myself over the past year whilst it hit me in the lead up to our wedding about how I couldn't cope with not having my dad there after losing him to prostate cancer. The wedding was cancelled With 12 weeks to go, for my happiness, we decided it was best to cancel the wedding as we didn't know how I would manage to get down the aisle.

after that, the relationship became not very nice with lots of arguments and we then split up. I had been with him for 5 years, but I am struggling greatly. This is made worse by the fact he is always out and appears to have met someone. When we ended, he told me that he would be going on dates and enjoying himself but that whether he met someone in a week, a month, or 6 months he would do it when it was the right person. I am still having counselling to deal with the loss of my dad 

i am finding it really hard, and more than anything want him back. He does not reply to anything but is always online. I'm so so heartbroken :-(