Hey hun,

sorry to hear about your mum

the only thing I can say is just go to the doctors, babe 90% of breast lumps aren’t even cancer, I found a lump in my breast two weeks ago and am now waiting results at my app on 22nd I suffer terribly from anxiety but the anxiety of just not living with a lump in your breast is worse then the anxiety of biopsy result take it from someone who left a lump in there breast for ages , I regret not going now

please just go to the doctor and get checked i promise you will be fine x

My lump is sore And the lady who scanned me said most cancerous lumps are not painful! The best thing for you is use your doctors and if your mum was here I’m sure she would be telling you ‘just go!!’ Good luck xxx

Bless you, feeling your anxiety, I found a lump last Monday and I see the specialist on Monday. Needless to say as anyone is, my mind is running away with me already. 
I would go and get it checked, for peace of mind if nothing else, it could be nothing. Love to you xx 

Thanks for the message its so reassuring knowing your not on your own feeling like your loosing your mind i went and got checked today he said its moveable and tender to touch which is a good sign but he is referring me for a mammogram in 2 to 3 weeks he isnt overly worried but i had a bit of a melt down when i was explaining it all to him so i hope he wasnt just being nice to be nice im sick to my stomach with nerves i hope your ok and get some positive news on the 22nd loads of love x

Thanks for the text so i got checked so waiting for my mammogram appointment i have myself up the walls ive 2 young kids aswell so im petrified of not being around for them really hoping its benign best of luck to you on monday hoping for good news for you x

Hi thanks for the reassurance i know he did say to me the fact its tender to touch and moving around is a good sign so i just keep reminding myself of that i know she would of made me go straight up but i did put it off for a few weeks as i think i was in denial which is silly i know but im so scared and after seeing her pass away 9 weeks after diagnosis (kidney not breast) it just put such a fear in me thanks so much for the message xx

I'll also get my mammo and ultra sound scans done this Monday and I feel your pain :( 

For the last three weeks since finding the lump I've been suffering from constant anxiety and frequent panic attacks :( insomnia, difficulty breathing, paralyzing fear, tingling hands and feet etc... Not to mention the brain fog and not being able to stop crying :( 

And it has been made so much more difficult as I live in the UK but do not have a national insurance number here. I've applied several times and have been refused on the basis that I "do not need it" (go figure!) so now I have to travel back to my birth country for any scans... or possible treatment... While actually living in the UK with my British partner for years and having our home set up here. Which makes it time consuming, financially debilitating and adds so much frustration on top of everything else. My mum and her sisters had breast cancer as did my grandmother. Only one of my aunts lived to see her 70th birthday :(  My mum was diagnosed with stage 4 after being treated for "nerve inflammation" on her leg for months, only to find out it was actually metastisized BC in her bones. 
I've had nerve pain in my arm and shoulder for a while, but put it down to spending too much time at the computer (and wrong angle). Then, three weeks ago, while trying to figure out why I get this reoccurring weird, gentle itching feeling around my nipples I found a sizable lump in my breast... Needless to say, all I've been able to think about after that is my mum's very difficult journey she had after her diagnosis, and I am petrified this is what my future will hold. These last three weeks have been the most horrible ones of my life and the worst part is thinking it actually might get a lot worse from now on :(

I do not know how to make it, honestly. Sorry for the rant :( I'm just so so utterly devastated and worried about the future, not only about cancer diagnosis in general, but also about the practical aspects of it... and having to do it in a different country, alone. Having to separate from my partner, or us having to sell our home here and him moving with me to somewhere where he doesn't speak the language and has no job opportunities just to watch me die... 

I am 41 and we were planning to adopt kids. Now I feel like everything - literally everything, from my life, home, friends, dreams, future - might be taken only to be replaced with fear, anger and pain. I know there is no "need to panic" until you actually get diagnosed, but I keep thinking of my mum and quite frankly have very little optimism left in me. 

Again, sorry for the rant. 
I do hope your scans go well. 

Not so hopeful with mine :(