Hi

I'm sitting here next to my mum who is dying of cancer, I moved her into my house so I could provide 24 hrs care for her.

I was told on Friday by her palliative care nurse that I would probably lose her over the weekend. 

Her breathing has been changing all weekend and she has had the death rattle on and off throughout today.she hasn't been awake for 35 hours so I can't get any painkillers into her.

I spoke to the district nurse Sunday morning and she said unless there are visable signs of pain just let her be.

I am doing a walking night with her tonight as I don't want her to die without me being awake with her.

Not sure why I'm writing this, I have some family here with me but there all.asleep and I feel so alone 

Paula x