Hi Paula...

Bless ya, I know how scary the thought is .. I plumbed for total right masectomy... as l wanted it all out .. but was scared how I'd feel when I looked at a scar instead of a boob .. and the other one still there ... I'd seen photo of masectomy .. but know it's another thing when it's me ... 

But you know after it was done, and plaster came off .. I was in the bathroom, and nurse helped me remove some dressing .. well l looked down, and honestly the first thought in my head was ... I can live with that .. and I just turned my thinking on its head ... instead of thinking I had no boob .. I thought that meant that cancer was cut out too ..  and every time I look at my little granddaughter Emily , I think that's a small price to pay to see her grow up .. so now I look down with pride .. that is what tells me everyday the journey I've been on .. .. my surgeon took my boob but gave me something far more precious.... time ..

I know it's devistating to some and I can empathise with them .. but I've seen those tattoos... of nipples ..they look really good ... and think you'd be surprised ... it's just about looking at things differently .. Chrissie x

Thank you Christie,

your very brave, much braver than me, I’m 54 and divorced, but do have two lovely children and 4 gorgeous Grandchildren who I love dearly, and of course want to watch them all grown up, married and living happy, healthy life’s. However it’s still my life now, and I’m very body conscious, I train hard in a gym daily normally, I look after myself, so this is so very upsetting for me, I still have not found my soul mate it just feels so unfair.. i still feel so young..  yet this has really effected me, I’m having nightmares most night, so little sleep..I go back to work on Monday, so that will help me, something else to do......  but they want to do the op on the 25/10, so it’s not long to get my head around everything.. I’ve made an appointment for weds with a breast care surgeon, who is going to go through everything with me before I make my mind up, it just seems so drastic when they are container in the milk ducts for now..

i really appreciate you talking to me about your experience, and you seem so together about it all..

paula xx