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Flou
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Hi,

No sleep again, please can I just ramble as I’ve no-one to tell? I’m a 45 single mum of 1 boy, I was referred to the breast clinic by my GP after they found something (I went in with shoulder pain and they thought they’d found a fibroadenoma).

At the clinic on Tuesday the nurse found a different lump and I had various mammograms and then an ultrasound - it became clear the nurse had found something and I had a biopsy, I was totally unprepared for this and had gone alone in my lunch break - what an idiot. Back with the nurse she nurse she brought in another nurse to sit with me which I guess was when I got really scared.

They called it suspicious which seems to be code for “probably” and they said as much, the good news was that my lymph nodes were ok which makes me lucky I know. The lovely nurses were preparing me I suppose for what’s to come, saying I needed to bring someone with me next week. I went for an MRI yesterday which actually was ok except for the racket it makes! I’m back in next Thursday for my results...

I’m petrified as I don’t feel brave and strong or positive like everyone on here is brilliant at being, my whole body seems to ache and feel horrible inside - why is that?

Sorry to go on, I do genuinely like coming on here and learning more about something I knew nothing about a week ago!

Have a great weekend x

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    Hi flou your up early most of the ladies will be having their beauty sleep just now as you know, when they wake up you should get plenty of replies, oh and welcome to the forum the club nobody wants to join, if nobody replies before dinner I'll have a word with them after all it is Saturday,, if you want to have a look at the strings there's quite a few lady's have joined together and there's plenty of gossip going around, just join in every one welcome,... Best wishes.... Billy

    P.s on the forum you can ramble and rant all you like it's the thing ladies do best, 

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    I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. The stress of the situation is likely to make you feel pretty rubbish. Since I got the urgent referral I've felt terrible and I know in my head its down to stress although my daft brain starts telling me otherwise. 

    Do you have someone who can go with you next week? 

    All I can suggest right now is trying to keep busy so you dont think about it as much, which I know is so hard to do. I'm terrible at taking my own advice, lol. 

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    Thanks Moog, keeping busy is definitely the key this week.

    My partner has offered to come next week but doesn’t live near me, I feel it’s a lot to put on someone else and maybe I’d be stronger if I went alone. 

     

  • Offline in reply to Flou

    I understand that, I've only told my husband until I know for sure. Hoping I'll be able to take him with me but it depends when it is as he might need to watch the kids. I'm dithering between wanting someone to go with me and wanting to go alone. I also feel like I'd be better alone but then think would it be better to have someone there and not need to lean on them rsther than having noone and needing to. Iykwim. If someone knows you're going though you can at least call if you need to maybe? 

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    You’re right I’ll keep my options open - I don’t want to shut anyone out or put too much on anyone! Thanks for understanding- that helps so much xx

  • Offline in reply to Flou

    No worries, glad I could help. I'm the same, my parents are on holiday right now so dont want to tell them, there's nothing they can do and they'll just worry. Until I know whats going on I just dont see the point in worrying people really. X

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    When do you go back & find out? x

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    I'm still waiting for my referral. Its taking forever it seems, although was only referred last tuesday, and I need to know asap to arrange childcare. Just hoping my husband can get someone to cover whenever it is. Already had ultrasound which was inconclusive and blood tests that showed raise white blood count, other than that my Dr is being a bit shady, lol. Obv he doesnt want to commit to anything until I've been seen by haemotology but its frustrating, its been a while. Found neck lump in June and another under my arm last week so its been a while of me stressing about it, lol. 

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