Recent widow

Good morning everyone. My husband died on the 10th September 2019. Over the past 22 years he has battled male breast cancer, prostate cancer and more recently bladder cancer. We thought that he had won his latest battle until just ten days before his death we were given the awful news that he had secondary bone and liver cancer. I feel boken and totally let down by our oncoology team at the moment. I am angry that they took so long to tell us recent CT scan results, I am angry that we didn't have the time to spend quality time together, he went downhill so quickly. In time I hope that I will learn to understand and come to terms with everything but at the moment everything is so raw.