Yes i have my mum and Dad but they’re away on holiday and I don’t want to spoil their fun with this, i also have very good friends but feel as if i tell them they will only worry about me, and I feel as I don’t want to put anyone in that situation. Hopefully everything will be good for you, thank you for replying 

Hi I'm waiting for an urgent referral too after an abnormal pelvic scan & blood test. Time is standing still & I'm terrified. Please don't do this alone, I'm like you & don't want people to worry. I originally told my husband & a couple of close friends, there was no way I was going to tell my mum as she lost my Dad & Grandad to cancer but I did &  she's been a good support. Being 'happy' for the kids in the summer hols is exhausting but hopefully we won't be waiting too much longer. You're not alone, we're all here too. Sending love

Hi Worriedmum,

Welcome to the forum. I am so sorry to hear about the comings and goings you've had over the past year. It is so frustrating when nobody seems to take you seriously. Please try not to worry too much about your 'urgent 2 week referral'. This is the normal time scale for most cancer investigations, although fortunately, a lot of referrals don't show up anything untoward.

For as long as this forum is here you don't need to feel alone. We have all been through cancer ourselves or are looking after someone with cancer, so we all know what you are going through. Still, I agree with Lucky. It really does help to have a family member or friend who you can confide in about your innermost feelings.

I can understand that you don't want to spoil your parents' holiday, but please don't feel that your friends will only worry about you. It all depends upon how positive you are when dealing with this. Instead of feeling sorry for you, they can then support you and lend a listening ear. I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer in the past 10 years and have found that the support that I have received has been invaluable.

I would imagine that your emotions are all over the place at present, but rest assured that this is perfectly normal. Your feelings will begin to settle once you get a diagnosis and start to move on to treatment if it is required.

I hope that your gastric endoscopy goes well next week. You should have been told that you needed someone to drive you there when you were given your appointment, so don't think that you are stupid.

Do please let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Unfortunately i had another failed endoscopy with sedation :| 

can they tell anything with a Ct scan?

i have a long 2 weeks to wait for my consultant appointment 

Hi Worriedmum,

I am so sorry to hear that this endoscopy failed with sedation too. A CT scan can tell somethings, but the more supporting tests you have the more accurate your diagnosis will be.

Are they going to try for another endoscopy or not?

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

I can't imagine how you feel, I've only been waiting for my appointment for a week & it feels like a lifetime. I hope you get the answers you need soon & that you found some friends to talk to & support you xx

I’m not too sure I’m going to have to wait what the consultant says they might opt for an endoscopy under general anasthetic, ive had a lot of blood test so hopefully i will have some sort of answers in 2 weeks xx