Hi

I'm an early 30s female, generally fit and healthy but I've had a white patch in front of my tonsil for several months now, which has grown and changed shape. It's been very painful, gets more painful when I speak, and I've had near-constant ear pain the whole time and recently my ear on that side has started ringing on and off. I've been to my GP countless times and they initially insisted they couldn't see what I was talking about, but then about 2 weeks ago, she did see it and all of a sudden seemed worried, asked me about smoking and history of skin cancer (no to both) I've been referred for an urgent ENT appointment which is coming up next week, and I'm just dreading it. I can't seem to concentrate on anything else. Anyone have any advice on how to get past constantly thinking about the appointment? 

Thanks for your time x